"I’m done with blaming myself for making one of the worst decisions of my life. Not allowing myself to see how far you and I could go."

Yeah I had to brush over it real quick. Yes this was many years ago. This is a young lady I broke up with so she's the one that got away and I let her get away. I had other distractions and options going on at the time that wasn't worth it. Biggest mistake of my life. That grass definately wasn't greener. I'll say this without getting into a deep article ( because this s deep). She was a very affectionate

PDA girlfriend.

I was so cool and uptight and I pushed that away. The girl just really loved me and i didn't know how to recieve it. 10 years later I married a woman that wasn't affectionate at all. I got just whatI was looking for. I'll never attempt to control or suppress an woman's love again. This article was about forgiving myself. I effed up but better things are coming, better things are here. You would'nt have this version of a writer if I would've stayed with her. I have a deeper appreciation for women's feelings and emotions.

Btw I enjoy writing the story behind what I write. This will be future content i'm working on.